kiss the rain, whenever you need me

wow, it's been well over a year since i've blogged. life has changed so very much, for better and for worse.

families broken apart, hearts broken and put back together but leaves a scar, all the more susceptible to heartache later in life. and yet made stronger with that scar.

friends abandoning friends, other friendships made ever stronger. i have some of the best friends i never dreamed i'd be so blessed to have.

solitude has helped me find myself more, find out who i am without others around me to define me. i know now that all i need and all i'll ever need is my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. He's always been there for me, always will be.

i have become closer with different family members since all this chaos started, and definitely become estranged with the others.

very soon, i will be lucky enough to call one of my best friends 'sister' and whenever i think of this, i have to stop what i'm doing and jump up and down with excitement and joy.

God has blessed me with so very much, and i cannot express in words how excited i am to get to walk and talk with Him after this mortal life ends.

praise God!!!!

Pic Tag!

I'm finally doing it, but I don't have anyone to tag because they've all done it lol.

These are the rules:
Take a picture of yourself right now.
No primping or preparing.
Just snap a picture.
Load the picture onto your blog.
Tag some people to play along.

I was waiting for Elizabeth to go swimming with me and my dad's apartment.

Lydia's birthday is tomorrow!! I'm super excited!!

Wow, it's been a really long time since my last blog. Oh well. And my background is kinda fugly, but I was tired of the weird moon thing lol.

So I've had the past week off from work, and I have the rest of this week off too. Yay!

On thursday, my 19th birthday, I went to Planet Beach with Klarice, and went over to Park Meadows mall by myself to look around. I'm pretty sure they charged me for just looking at that place. EVERYTHING is expensive. This guy wanted me to join T-Mobile too. HAHA!

After that I went home and watched Chuck . . or something . . then drove Chris up to school and continued to the Horner's chiropractic clinic where I got birthday hugs and an adjustment. Then Jerryberry rode with me back to her house where Mrs. Horner baked me a cake! It was amazingly delicious! We had tacos before (which totally fell apart, it amused me :p ) and played Last Word. I'm not good at it, but it was fun!

Then I got sung to, and we had chocolate cake with chocolate frosting (YUM!!) while watching The Skeleton Key. It's pretty good, but I'm not sure if I like how it ended. lol Then I opened my present!! (pictures later, if I remember) There was this pink round thing wrapped by a super cute wire-flower! I opened it to see a super cute little purse! And there was more inside!! The fun never ended!! lol k I'm done. Eyeshadow, nailpolish, delicious icebreakers, the best pen EVER!, stickers, and this huge fat lip smackers! lol It's awesome, be jealous.
I LOVED it!!!
Thanks Lyd and Jerry!

Popcorn mishap

So this morning was quite entertaining!

Got to work. Sat around for a while. Klarice tossed me a bag of popcorn. So I went to the breakroom, put it in the microwave, and pushed the 'popcorn' button.

Problem was, it was a mini bag of popcorn.

So I'm sitting there reading a magazine, waiting for it to beep, not paying attention to the pops to tell when to stop. And then I smelt smoke. Greeeeeeeaaaaaaat.

So I look over and there's smoke coming out of the microwave. So I open it, grab the bag, and run it outside to the dumpster. Well the smoke alarm by the back door decided it was going to try to kill me with embarrassment. It went off and that thing is LOUD.

Jamie was in her room sleeping, cause it was slow, so she came out to see what was going on.

Well it took us 15 minutes to figure out how to turn the alarm off. Finally got it off. 2 seconds later we hear the sirens. I turned bright red and said "No!"

The Castle Rock firemen showed up. Klarice went outside to explain what happened. He came in (with his AX) and said "Alright, where's the microwave." So I lead him to the back and he's laughing at me the whole time. If my face didn't give me away, my guilty attitude did.

He checks it out, makes sure nothing's on fire, his partner tells us that if there was a fire we aren't supposed to turn off the alarm. DUH. lol

They help us open all the doors to try to get the smell out. Then they leave, still laughing.

Lol I was sooooo embarrassed. But hey! At least we didn't have any clients and I entertained Klarice and Jamie!

I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart

She smiles and laughs.

Pretends like everything is still normal.

Nothing is the same anymore.

Her world seems to be crashing down around her.

It hurts. It's hurting everyone close to her.

She can't fix it. Doesn't know how to.

This is no fairy-tale. There is no magic wand to wave and make it all better and perfect.

She doesn't know what's going to happen.

Make it stop.

So much for crying less.

Yay for weekends!!

ew. eW. EW! I HATE lotion in my hair, it makes it absolutely gross and looks greasy. BLEH.

Sooooo I was planning a party for tomorrow and I've been planning it for a little over a week and no one is coming lol. Lydia is though!! She and I are going to party it up by ourselves. Maybe get some lunch and see a movie. And I'm totally giving her a massage tonight, after we soak in the hottub! So that'll be fun. Be jealous, I dare you.

I'm at work and I only have 2 clients. I want more but then I don't. Haha mixed feelings. I want my last appointment to be moved up so I can leave earlier but I don't see that happening.

Ah well. Time for my first client! Ta ta!

It's 5 am. Fell asleep around 7 pm, been sleeping off and on since then. My head feels way too full to be healthy. Walking a short distance leaves me gasping and I have to sit down for a few minutes. No work today, thank goodness. Possibly not tomorrow either. Burning up but still have chills. I ache everywhere. Might get an adjustment tomorrow - later today, that is. I'll try to sleep more.


Ugh